Finally got my meds wednesday. I went to a free clinic and they did not have depakote or rispiredone so they gave me seroquelxr and stavzor. They had to ask another clinic for a sample of the cymbalta since the manufacturer is no longer providing free samples.

Wednesday night I slept for 16 hours straight! Woke up at 4pm thursday afternoon. I feel a little better. At least the chills and sweats are gone. But i'm still feeling anxious and irritable. I need to talk to someone face to face about what is going on with me and my daughter but I don't have anyone I can trust here in Orlando and talking over the phone is just not the same although it helps.

The bottom line i think is my daughter is tired of dealing with my mood swings and attitudes. Everything was going smoothly until I stopped taking my medications and now there seems to have been damage beyond repair. I had told her I would leave to go back to Houston so that the situation would not become unbereable but I think its too late.

Additionally in September my daughter's boyfriend will be moving in with her and they are planning in getting married next year. She has admitted that she would rather have me living separately so she can have a good marriage relationship.

So I called a friend in Houston and asked him to start looking for an apartment so I can move in with him.He is a good friend and we had already talked about it a few weeks ago, so I just called him to confirm. I will be missing my family a lot but I think it's in the best interest of everyone involved.